disclaimereverybody knows who this entry is for
i dont want any comments on my blog for this.
i just want to pour my heart out somewhere.

thanks.


it's funny you know,

all you did was
burp and blow it in my face,
suddenly turn and walk in another direction- leaving me to walk by myself.
make me pick up your shoe
threaten me to eat or you'd leave
make fun of my lazy eye
insult my shoes
and call me dumbass

just when i thought it was getting better,
it got worse.

and yet,
the more you did it
the more i tried to make you to treat me better.

obviously, it didnt happen,
you blasted me
and we've got a cold war going on.

what for smile and pretend everythings okay?
what for complain to everyone about how stupid it is
what for think of what to say but end up silent
what for wish things were different when i know they wont be?
what for blame myself when youre the one that exploded at me in the first place?

because i know at least a tiny part of you cares (i think?) eventhough you pretend not to
because you came for my birthday party & gave me a guy-ish hug but a hug nonetheless
because you're my late night chatting companion
because it's fun to hang out in the toy section with you
because you enjoy the books i enjoy
because you remember (nearly) everything i say
because i miss your cute voice clips on msn
because i miss your random comments on my blog
because i miss your silly jokes - even if it takes me awhile to GET them
because i miss sharing songs with you
because i miss you being the first person i talk to once i get online
because i miss typing your name on msn with tons of 'i's
because i miss sharing my horoscope with you
because i edited this entry many times adding more things that i miss

i still miss our late night conversations.
but i quite dont expect anything to change.
you & your pride issues.
not to mention me and my stupid pride issues.

nothing ever changes.

And no, none of it's true 'cause I never knew you
and now the truth of it is, is I wanna be like you
So hello, good friend, I wanna be next to you
For my head, for my heart, for what's true

this song makes me super emo, hell.
i miss you lah.

yeah, everybody's right
clap your hands.
melissa says she doesnt care but she does.
i hear cheers of "i knew it!"
yeah
shut it.

how many more times do i have to say goodbye to you?


on a slightly lighter note,
today started good
and has ended okay-ly as well
after work, went (i just typed went-ed) to suntec/marina sq with sarah
then went to meet tanya at gluttons' bay
was good hanging out with the girls.

sarah, i had missed you tons
i hope everything's okay with you
you know i love you
and if you ever need anything
im a phone call/text away

goodnight.


There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep

Wishlist
YSL Elle.
Pink Sony t700.
Snuff by Chuck.
Holidaaay.
One Tree Hill DVDs