seasons of love

seasons of love
Sunday, July 29, 2007 @10:52 AM

here's pictures from the two days of IRIR at the expo

theyre all rambledjambledjumbled up and are in no order

i had a ball.

how hard should i fall
Friday, July 27, 2007 @1:48 PM

well i know i said i wasnt going to update.
but apparently, i cant help myself.
plus, im in a better mood today.
kinda.

yesterday was tanya's surprise party.
and art before that was well, a waste of time.
so anyway i assume tanya was half-y surprised
since she got so many hints from other people about the party.
haha
tsktsk

i promised sarah beforehand that i wouldnt get drunk
and i didnt get drunk!
=)
i listen to my mummy.
hehe

so anyway, it was rather fun, drinking, dancing, chit chatting
and the cake was oh-so-good.
and everyone was decked out in white excpt for the birthday girl
here's some photos.

so today, im gonna go phone-a-searching

and hopefully i end up with something ill love

its hard to let go of my precious 3230

(i think its 3230)

haha

see,the last picture

it's right there.

anyway

i shant make myself sound like a retard being emotionally attached to a cellphone

wish me luck!!

we were supposed to go out today!

i miss you bestybuddy.

is this the end?
Wednesday, July 25, 2007 @3:51 PM

im gonna drown myself in
work, school, the witch of portobello and like a flowing river
for the next week

dont check for updates
you wont find them.

A philosophy professor stood before his class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with rocks, about 2" in diameter. He then asked the students if the jar was full ?

They agreed it was.
So the professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles, of course, rolled into the open areas between the rocks. He then asked the students again if the jar was full.

They agreed it was.
The professor picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He then asked once more ifthe jar was full.

The students responded with a unanimous, "YES".The professor then picked a bottle of red wine from under the table and proceeded to pour the entire contents into the jar effectively fillingthe empty space between the sand.

The students laughed.
"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.

The rocks are the important things - your family, your health, your friends - things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, your car.

The sand is everything else - the small stuff."
"If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the rocks. The same goes for your life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to care about your health. Go out dancing. There will always be time to go to work, clean the house, and fix the disposal.

Take care of the rocks first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.

goodnight and goodbye.

p.s. im still looking forward to saturday.

@2:12 AM

Are you hanging on for hope?
The clock strikes past the hour.
Is the pain enough to choke the life out?
You may never get to sleep.
Your time is not your time tonight.
Her smile will make you weak and proud.
Do you ever miss her?
Do you feel the cold wind whisper?
Is there anything more deafening?
Are you hanging on for hope?
It's all you've got worth living for.
Is it much too much to cope the road out?
There's a tension when we speak.
The income's overrated but it's worth it when we meet on common ground.
Do you ever miss her?
Do you feel the cold wind whisper?
Is there anything:.
Do you ever cower when the clock strikes past the hour?
Is there anything more deafening?
Are you hanging on for hope?
It's all you got, it's all you got.
I miss you more that you could know when I'm gone.

@12:46 AM

~~disclaimer~~everybody knows who this entry is for
i dont want any comments on my blog for this.
i just want to pour my heart out somewhere.

thanks.

it's funny you know,

all you did was
burp and blow it in my face,
suddenly turn and walk in another direction- leaving me to walk by myself.
make me pick up your shoe
threaten me to eat or you'd leave
make fun of my lazy eye
insult my shoes
and call me dumbass

just when i thought it was getting better,
it got worse.

and yet,
the more you did it
the more i tried to make you to treat me better.

obviously, it didnt happen,
you blasted me
and we've got a cold war going on.

what for smile and pretend everythings okay?
what for complain to everyone about how stupid it is
what for think of what to say but end up silent
what for wish things were different when i know they wont be?
what for blame myself when youre the one that exploded at me in the first place?

because i know at least a tiny part of you cares (i think?) eventhough you pretend not to
because you came for my birthday party & gave me a guy-ish hug but a hug nonetheless
because you're my late night chatting companion
because it's fun to hang out in the toy section with you
because you enjoy the books i enjoy
because you remember (nearly) everything i say
because i miss your cute voice clips on msn
because i miss your random comments on my blog
because i miss your silly jokes - even if it takes me awhile to GET them
because i miss sharing songs with you
because i miss you being the first person i talk to once i get online
because i miss typing your name on msn with tons of 'i's
because i miss sharing my horoscope with you
because i edited this entry many times adding more things that i miss

i still miss our late night conversations.
but i quite dont expect anything to change.
you & your pride issues.
not to mention me and my stupid pride issues.

nothing ever changes.

And no, none of it's true 'cause I never knew you
and now the truth of it is, is I wanna be like you
So hello, good friend, I wanna be next to you
For my head, for my heart, for what's true

this song makes me super emo, hell.
i miss you lah.

yeah, everybody's right
clap your hands.
melissa says she doesnt care but she does.
i hear cheers of "i knew it!"
yeah
shut it.

how many more times do i have to say goodbye to you?

on a slightly lighter note,
today started good
and has ended okay-ly as well
after work, went (i just typed went-ed) to suntec/marina sq with sarah
then went to meet tanya at gluttons' bay
was good hanging out with the girls.

sarah, i had missed you tons
i hope everything's okay with you
you know i love you
and if you ever need anything
im a phone call/text away

goodnight.

There is a secret that we keep
I won't sleep if you won't sleep

sinking ships
Tuesday, July 24, 2007 @12:09 AM

when mel is bored
she types a wishlist
=)

here goes.
1. MoZella album.- i will
2. The Meg & Dia Band album. - something real
3. Red sunnies
4. Keds shoooos.
5. New handdddphonee
6. Red Cardigan

okay, yeah nothing else
funny how i always write wishlists when i have no money?
well, we always want what we cant get right?
nyeh

man, i have to start "the witch of portobello" by paulo coelho
its been sitting there and staring at me.
i want to start
but its big to carry lah

i havent been reading in damn long
and my mind's gone numb and stupid
ohhhh dear

anyway, work tmrw.
this week's gonna be busy

but we'd just wait till saturday
=)

you should be stronger than me
Monday, July 23, 2007 @2:11 AM

ohkay,
so what do you call a day that's fun, and great but emo-ish at the same time?
MASH-EY?
haha
shits.

but hey,
thanks to you two.
really.

maybe it was just the weather
and the fact that im now BROKE.
haha
oh well.

my eating patterns have been really erratic lately
dont know what's up with my mood/appetite.
but hey, ive lost 2 kgs.
YAY.
=)
13298093420394820934 MORE to go!
hehe.

so anyways
im still really craving for roti prata and teh halia.
its been almost a week
dangdangdang.
maybe tmrw
or maybe not
gr.
im also craving for you tiao.
HOLY SHIT
thats weird.

ok i shld go to bed
haha.

im scrubbing sexy back.
HAHA classic.
much love, much love.
=)

follow you into the dark
Sunday, July 22, 2007 @12:58 AM

oh you've got me smiling again.
:)

say it aint so
Saturday, July 21, 2007 @1:25 AM

I really want something PLAID-y
and i swear, forever 21 is overloaded with plaid-ed stuff
oh man oh man
and wetseal
oh man oh man
i want to shop online
but NO MONEY
okay i have money
but i have some debts to settle
nyeh

i declare myself bankrupt.

Daily Overview for July 21, 2007
Quickie:
Focus more on the issues that are going on around your home. Keep it peaceful
Daily Love for July 21, 2007
Daily Singles:
Partnerships look tricky now, so thank your lucky stars that you're single, and tread carefully when it comes to people with romantic potential. Oh, and if you're working closely with anyone, take care there too.

So, im getting REALLY tired
and im on the verge of falling sick
i can feel it.
not more than 5 hours of sleep for 4 nights,
weird eating times/habits
work work work and school.

yipes.

i cant wait for study week
even studying sounds better than this
possible?
yes.

i just raided my wardrobe
and i felt stupid
because as full as it is,
half of the things are stuff i dont wanna wear
and 1/4 of it is black
blackblackblack

thus, i need some shopping

oh yes, no money

ANYWAY
im really mad at a particular somebody
and im sure that particular person know who im refering to.
i dont know what the hell is up with you
but hey you know what,
our friendship has always been worse than a rollercoaster.

oh that sounded a bit harsh
maybe im not mad
just bitter.

goodnight.

p.s. yesterday's date-
20/07/2007
cool.
mhm
tata.

if youre leaving will you take me with you?
Friday, July 20, 2007 @12:15 AM

I'm dying to know

do you do you like dreaming of things

so impossible or only the practical

or ever the wild or waiting through all your bad bad days

just to end them with

someone you care about

and do you like making out

and long drives and brown eyes

and guys that just

don't quite fit in

yeah do you like them

So yes, I'll see you there.

Im a girly girl
I talk alot
and daydream constantly
Im sentimental
and i try to be funny
Im perhaps the laziest girl on the planet
I love to read
and am obsessed with painting my wall
Im trying to get out of my "emily the strange" phase
I doodle alot
and i absolutely adore funny people.
AND i have no idea why i just typed this whole loada words.

Daily Overview for July 20, 2007
Some good old-fashioned romance is just what you need to soothe your heart and soul. Unattached? Not a problem. Take yourself out for a lovely night on the town, or better yet, stay in. Indulge yourself.

guess im gonna be staying in and indulging
yeah, sure
id indulge in fruit juice and teevee and PROJECTS

oh fun
hooray

OKBYE

stay right where i can see you
Wednesday, July 18, 2007 @12:52 PM

For months you've been away,
You're here a couple days,
I've got all of the time in the world.
To do with what we please,
If it were up to me,
We'd have all of the time in the world.
Just stay right where I can see you.
When you go away I get so low,
Like temperatures when they're at their coldest.
When you go away I get so lonely,
And I'm stranded by the side of the bed

okay so everyone should know that ive given up
because im sick of wasting time and money
=(

YAY

okay on to an even darker note-
i woke up on the wrong side of the bed
and im super grumpy today.
i need cheering up-
and my EMO songs are not gonna help
AND i have to work later till 11
AND i have work tmrw
oh man

SOMEONE SHOOT ME.
ok no
its gonna get better

BE POSITIVE

alright bye.

- because destination classes are oh-so-boring

=)
BYE (again)

i can do whatever i want
Tuesday, July 17, 2007 @9:02 PM

Today i realized the wondrousness of standing in the train all the way to work-
marvelling at everything outside
and grooving to meg & dia and the new amsterdams.
though, the train ride would'a been better without the lady who was standing in front of me-
who, by the way, smelt of PEPPER and had lovely long armpit hair
=)

Are you hanging on for hope?
The clock strikes past the hour.
Is the pain enough to choke the life out?
You may never get to sleep.
Your time is not your time tonight.
Her smile will make you weak and proud.
Do you ever miss her?
Do you feel the cold wind whisper?
Is there anything more deafening?
Are you hanging on for hope?
It's all you've got worth living for.
Is it much too much to cope the road out?
There's a tension when we speak.
The income's overrated but it's worth it when we meet on common ground.
Do you ever miss her?
Do you feel the cold wind whisper?
Is there anything.
Do you ever cower when the clock strikes past the hour?
Is there anything more deafening?
Are you hanging on for hope?
It's all you got, it's all you got.
I miss you more that you could know when I'm gone.

@12:58 AM

good company + ice cream = great evening.

thank you.
=)

Daily Extended Forecast for July 17, 2007
All the emails, text messages and phone calls that you receive today will deliver positive news -- all the communication is good! Not only that, but one of these wonderful messages will be from someone who is interested in seeing you again after a long time apart. You might have to read between the lines to understand the full extent to which they want to have you in their life again, but go with your gut -- and be prepared for your reunion to be a negotiation.

hmm.

25 minutes too late
Saturday, July 14, 2007 @1:46 AM

YES PLEASE
=)

so anyway,
today i met up with philip
we had soup spoon while he taunted me about my lazy eye
seriously how do i make a lazy eye, UN-lazy?

=(

then i went to fullerton and met up with my longlostfriend, ben.
we were pretty touristy
snapping photos at the merlion, esplanade, one fullerton.
haha
was gd having him back in SG
but he leaves tmrw.
nyeh.

overall, i had a mashed up day
but it was pretty gd.
town was quite packed, just like saturdays.
weekends~ gee.

i still have yet to use my neon pink umbrella- that kinda sucks
and i dont quite want rain tmrw.
oh well, we'll see
for now, i think i should turn in

gdnight everyone

=)

daily teen (14july)
Your emotional state is nine times better than it used to be (and if it was at zero, it's now off the charts). It's the perfect time to let your people in on the secret of life, while you still remember it!
daily extended
One of your newest relationships may be off to a shaky start, but new beginnings are not always effortless. This relationship has a lot of potential, and it will be worth all the effort it requires from you today. Their demands might seem odd or even unreasonable, but you have to give them a lot of credit for asking for what they want. Also, you should take it as a compliment that they are willing to trust you with so many of their feelings.

we are who we were when
Friday, July 13, 2007 @3:39 PM

but thoughts they change and times they rearrange

i don't know who you are anymore

loves come and go and this i know i'm not who you recall anymore

but i must confess you're so much more then i remember

can't help but entertain these thoughts

thoughts of us together

we are who we were when

could've been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend

we are who

we are who we were when

who knew what we know now

could've been more

but at least you're still my day late friend

we are who

we are who we were when

yeah you see you've got it stuck in my head now

anyway,

today was a pretty good day

though sarah angel and i wasted our time travelling to school

basically colour & co class today consisted of

SITTING DOWN, and STARING INTO SPACE

while waiting for QUEEN nancy to look at our paintings,

insult them

then, THATS IT

done

no grading, no nothing

nothing!

we went to school, for NOTHING

so anyway

on a lighter note.. =)

at least we gotta hang, yes sarah?

after school, sarah and i headed to tampines

where our noses were tortured by the smelly hokkaido fair

(okay, it wasnt THAT bad today)

then, we walked around, had dinner at pasta mania

the damn grande beef pasta's GD lah.

try it.

recommended by melissa's tastebuds

(ive had a sudden flashback to where i had a story about my tastebuds going on strike or something. anyone remember?)

anyway

then we were so bored so we went HOME

gee

got home, and i BAKED

oh srsly.

what always makes me feel better

#1. painting (for fun. not for COLOUR & COMPOSITION classes)

#2. baking

so anyway, the cupcakes turned out pretty good

and i did 'em all by myself.

yippee

after that while i was cleaning up

a damn flying cockroach appeared

and i freaked the hell out

ahhhhh-hell.

scary!

cockroaches=bad

flying cockroaches=bad x 32408309482039423

eeks.

yeah

i bought a neon pink umbrella

i cant wait for rain

so i can use it

srsly, damn exciting

ILL TAKE A PICTURE WHEN I GET TO USE IT,

then ill post it here

man, im not feigning excitement

i really am excited

okay gdnight.

enough rambles for one day

(look at the time! 4am! gee)

INSOMNIAAAAA-NIA-NIA-NIA-A-A-A

cheh.

toodles & happy friday the 13th, everyone

ill stay with you
Thursday, July 12, 2007 @1:45 AM

ive never had THAT many comments before.

wow,
well today was kinda eventful
in a bad way
and art nearly killed me

seriously!
but im still here
and tmrw's sarah day
YES-SIR-REE

sound gd to me

GDNIGHT, world

you cant stop the beat
Monday, July 09, 2007 @12:23 AM

so, ive decided (with much peer pressure) to opt for more COLOUR in my wardrobe
as opposed to shelf full of black clothes
=)
good news?
sorta.
bad news for my wallet.
haha.

so anyways,
today was a lazyhazy~~crazy~~sunday
there was weird conversation all throughout dinner (as usual)
we were eating corn
and my mum was like

CORN IS GOOD
it's yummy...
and...corny
*pause*
and horny.

hahahahaa
okay maybe it was funnier when she said it.
there was something funnier but i cant recall.
never mind.
'm getting old.

i painted more of my wall today
really, im addicted
and soon im gonna run outta space
so, what then?!

oh dear.

okay so its not sucha good picture
but i swear its pretty nice
=)

okay

Immagonnagonow
BYE

it scares me to think
that you could find takers
other than me and better than me
but your head is elsewhere
and I'm talking enough for both of us
when will you see
it's not so easy for me

its time that we settle the score
Saturday, July 07, 2007 @2:02 AM

well, i attended my consultation PLUS my tutorial today
rather proud of myself.
however, i skipped work.
peer pressure.
haha
nah

i was feeling a bit lazy
and i wanted to be at home
plus, i had PIZZA
so all's gd
mmmmmhmm
pizza=love.
thats how i feel love nowadays yah
aint that great

soon ill weight 400 pounds
yikes.
but it doesnt matter
id be LOVED
hahahaha
idiot

okay so anyway,
its now 2am
and ive got work at 9
which means ive gotta be up ard 7
what the heck is wrong with me.

all that talk about me being an insomniac,
it affected me i think
now i really am.

even when i can sleep in
i wake up early
think
and think
and think
about i have no idea what
and its tough to get back to bed

=(
anyway
070707
live earth

WEAR GREEN, people!

melissa, OUT!

g-dog
Tuesday, July 03, 2007 @12:41 AM

That mistake was gold
I know that without you
its something that I could never do
that was why staple the eyes and
seven dates for me to sell machines
and tear on seven years you assured me
that Id be fine if I complied
only push the way off to fight you
Now Im sorry Im sorry im not sure
getting off my chest the story ends
without you
I would find a way without you.
tell him his eyes see too clear

it's not going to be fun
but i can do it
because i have friends.
good friends.

sarah im looking forward to wednesday
and to the 15th as well.
=)

work tmrw,
and hopefully outing outing outing after
sigh. so tired for work
but NOMURA is getting the whole hotel all crazy
no shit!
=\
so ive gotta be there for support
before the concierge goes ballistic
hahah

much love to everybody