This basement's a coffin
I'm buried alive.
I'll die in here just to be safe.
I'll die in here just to be safe.
'Cause you're goneI get nothing
and you're off with barely a sigh.
I never said "Good-bye"
But I've hidden a note,
it's pressed between pages
that you've marked to find your way back.
It says
"Does he ever get the girl?"

well work zoomed by pretty quick today
after which i had an icecream treattttttttt
awwwww
thanks!
=)
haha

well, work's 9-3 tmrw
and im still up
p.s its 2.27am
yikes
always have the same bad habit

my 3 favourites, i cant wait till july 14th
hehe

lovesloves.

gdnight

You can recognise a warrior of light by the look in his eye. Warriors of light are in the world. they form part of the world, and they were sent into the world without saddlebags or sandals. They are often cowardly. They do not always act correctly.

Warriors of light are wounded by the most foolish things, they worry about trivialities. they believe themselves incapable of growing. Warriors of light sometimes believe themselves unworthy of any blessing or miracle.

Warriors of light often ask themselves what they are doing here. Often they find their lives meaningless.

That is why they are warriors of ligh. Because they fail. Because they ask questions. Because they keep looking for a meaning. And, in the end, they will find it.


okay thank you goodnight everybody
one more time, i love paulo coelho
now, workor dont work tmrw?
im so moodless

im waiting for saturday you know?
food food food
hehe
=)

http://music.yahoo.com/read/news/44921474

READ THAT READ THAT

oooooooooooooooooooooo
SPICE GIRLS REUNION

cool
okay i shan't sound like a kid
'cos really, it's exciting but i doubt id pay so much for a spice girls concert
especially not since i can turn on "WANNABE" and prance ard my room- having more fun instead
=)

hehe
im a kid

gdnight

so, i love you two the most
=)


anyways,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAHMAN
welcome to the 19 club!

heh.

so, tmrw.
work or stay home and do projects?
not sure yet
but im tired.

please dont be disappointed.



cause it's 5 o'clock,
the hour stops the sunlight,
the buildings shade the masquerade
and kill time,
here we're nothin more than fools
and whores and sad highs,
through the summer sand,
we're living in a wasteland

haha, its a great mystery why you affect me this much.
okay, maybe not THAT great.

but anyway,
im just amazed at how no one seems to get me nowadays
i dont even get myself.
when did this happen?
& why?

my life is as such-
one day im up
one day im down
one day i think i know what you're thinking
one day i dont even know what im thinking.
doom.
im headed for doom.

i just need a cuddle.

you dont know me.
you dont wear my chains.

today, although i had fun,
all the nonsense at work
with diego and tanya
but, i still feel a bit emo.
but i'll get onto that a little later.

so anyway, today i skipped school and worked instead.
yes, genius
and there was so much nonsense at work
laughter and laughter
and then tanya and i went for dinner in town
PASTAMANIA=yum
=)
and we bought matching shirts.
the best.
ha.

so anyway
I MISSING A FRIEND
HELLO FRIEND, it's only been 2 days since we sat and talked (twice)
but i miss talking to you lah
and you jolly well know who you are alright?!

AND
syai messaged me the other day
and grr
emo ever since


and i havent gone to school
1st week back,
and skipped 2 days
brilliant-o!

BYE

My hands are tied
My body bruised,
she's got me with
Nothing to win and
Nothing left to lose
And you give yourself away
And you give yourself away
And you give
And you give
And you give yourself away
With or without you
With or without you
I can't live
With or without you

well, the past few days have been pretty eventful.
ive had a great birthday.
and yesterday, at EA my dad was emcee-ing
and he bloody dragged me up to the front
and everyone sang "happy birthday!"
geeslouise.

was pretty embarassing
and i was like
"OH MY GOD! NO!"
haha

so anyway, birthday's over.
school's coming
i have a feeling, this yr's gonna be good.
more parties ahead i hope
with more friends
=)

NAUGHTY NINETEEN
yeah baby.

gdbye.

Hi Melissa

Thanks for your email. My apologies for the delay in reverting to you. Yes, we would like to offer you an internship with our hotel. I will be contacting you next week to come by to sign the letter.

Thank you.

Best regards
Adeline Tan

one load off my shoulders.

BRENDON HAS FORCED ME TO ANNOUCE TO THE WORLD THAT HE WAS THE FIRST TO WISH ME.
technically, it wasnt my birthday yet though.

it was 11.45pm.
but nevermind.
yes yes, you're first.
thank you
=)

THE BEST.

thank you guys.

a kaleidoscope, books, candles, chocolates, perfume, notebooks, beeping card..
all great!
thanks thanks


LOVE.

i'll lay down on your bed of roses
to offer out my heart and soul
but in return

i want u to burn
burn for me baby!
like a candle in my life oh burn,
burn for me,
baby burn for me.

best song.

anyway, today i received a great (early) birthday gift.
a pink nano.
notice it's in my wishlist over there?
<-- and a bunch of other stuff thank you. it means alot =) anyway, work was pretty alright today not too much drama gd, i cldnt have handled drama today just not in the mood OH and i went for dental and my teeth look better how glad i am. okay not that much better and this is why

dentist: Do you drink lots of coffee?
me: yes, tons.
dentist: starbucks?
me: yeah, starbucks is evil!


HAHA.
bleh.

Was it a dream?
Was it a dream?
Is this the only evidence that proves it
A photograph of you and I
(A photograph of you and I)
Was it a dream?
Was it a dream?
Is this the only evidence that proves it
A photograph of you and I
A photograph of you and I
A photograph of you and I
... In love...


ok right.
well,
my birthday's in 5 days.
yeah, well what about it.

right now, i just want some candy floss.
a kid for a day
yeah, sounds gd to me

gdnight

2 good much-needed laughter-filled days.
=)

thank you, 3 of you.
t'was good.

and now, we need some rest.


it's times like these you learn to live again
it's times like these you give and give again
it's times like these you learn to love again
it's times like these time and time again

season 4 finale one tree hill - out

it was love.
so feel good.
kinda.
yeah, made me miss secondary school, somehow.

anyway its late, ive had a long day
caught in the rain
interview
vivo
sentosa
clarke quay adventure
one fullerton
boat quay

tons of laughter

good.

bye.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY LU-ANNE

today was okay
started with tanya attempting to convince me not to work
(haha)
but her attempts failed and i found myself falling asleep in the train with masses of people

so, work was okay
the usual ho-hum-boring-doo-dahs
i got called for an interview but i shant say where
=)
keep up suspense yah

after work,
i went shopping ALONE
with the accompaniment of my ol' faithful creative mp3.
=)
from like 3 and i got home at like 6 plus!
im pretty impressed

so i went to marina sq
then tampines mall
and im happy with my buys
and im also happy that pay's coming in soon

so i can shop somemore
=)
my birthday's coming up.
*ahem
i still want a kaleidoscope.


okay bye.
i need to exercise

The sun is rising ahead of me; it dazzles me slightly. I can only see Marie’s silhouette and the shapes of the buildings and the trees. The sheet of ice keeps shifting, water spills over onto the surface, but I know- with absolute certainty- that I will reach the edge.

I am in communion with the day, with my choices. I know the limits of the frozen water; I know how to deal with it, how to ask for its help, to keep me from falling. I begin to enter a kind of trance, a euphoric state; I am a child again, doing something that is wrong, forbidden, but which gives me enormous pleasure.

Wonderful! Crazy pacts with god, along the lines of “if I manage to do this, then so and so will happen”, signs provoked not by anything that comes from outside but by instinct, by my capacity to forget the old rules and create new situations.

i got kinda freaked/excited when i read this from the book.
i thought i was the only one who did that
the "crazy pacts with god" thing.

i do it always, in my head.
who else?
wow.

i know, my blog has suddenly turned into paulo coelho mania planet or something
dont mind me.
anyway, im on to my 6th paulo coelho book
soon, ill stop rambling on and on about him.
i promise.

=)

did i really do anything gd in my life to deserve to be with such a great guy for 1.5 years?
hey, im sorry.
be good & study hard.
=)

That is why it is so important to let certain things go.
To release them.
To cut loose.
People need to understand that no one is playing with marked cards; sometimes we win and sometimes we lose.
Dont expect to get anything back, dont expect recognition for your efforts, dont expect your genius to be discovered or your love to be understood, complete the circle. not out of pride, inability or arrogance, but simply because whatever it is no longer fits in your life.
close the door, change the record, clean the house, get rid of the dust.
stop being who you were
and become who you are.


I REALLY WANT A KALEIDOSCOPE!

ok bye.

If you behave differently, you will be expelled from the tribe because you could infect others and destroy something that was extremely difficult to organise in the first place.

We must always consider the look of our new cave, and if we dont have a clear idea of our own, then we must call in a decorator who will do his best to show otehrs what good taste we have.

We must eat three meals a day, even if we're not hungry and when we fail to fit the current ideal of beauty we must fast, even if we're starving.

WE must dress according to the dictates of fashion, make love whether we feel like it or not, kill in the name of our country's frontiers, wish time away so that retirement comes more quickly, elect politicians, complain about the cost of living, change our hairstyle, critise anyone who is different, go to a religious service on sunday, saturday or friday, depending on our religion, and there beg forgiveness for our sins and puff ourselves up with pride because we know the truth and despise the other tribe, who worship a false god.

Our children must follow in our footsteps, after all, we are older and know about the world.
We must have a university degree even if we never get a job in the area of knowledge we were forced to study.

We must study things that we will never use, but which someone told us was important to know; algebra, trigonometry, the code of Hammurabi.

We must never make our parents sad, even if this means giving up everything that makes us happy.


Paul Coelho always says things i can relate with.


read his books.

i was bored.

gdnight.

Choice of song for my funeral: hear you me- jimmy eat world.
Coffin colour- white with black details
Burial/cremation- cremation, please
Other specifications- everyone dress in colours please! (NO BLACK!)

okay
now that was weird
and random
no im not dying now
(i reaally do hope.)
i just, felt like it

gdnight.


May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
And if you were with me tonight,
I'd sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
god wouldn't let it live.
May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.

thank you, you 2 for caring
for asking me what's wrong
it put a smile on my face for that split second

friends,
god's #1 gift to us.

i love you all.


sarah& rahman, have a gd trip.
be safe.
<3

when you get back , we shall all look forward to the 21st.
yes?
=)

1. Chuck Palahniuk - "Lullaby"
2. William Tell "you can hold me down" album
3. Elizabethtown Dvd
4. Emily lacey wallet
5. Keds Slipons
6. Making April Cd



im having a really bad emo (x 1920192810928109) day.
=(
i dont know
im in some kinda FUNK
its a weird mood
you're not down or up
not happy or sad
youre just there.
alive.
yet, dead.

i feel so numb
and useless
and pathetic

and i need a change
a change of attitude
i need my optimism back-
if i even had any to begin with

im really NOT happy today
im going to chop off my hair really really soon
because that's just what i do
when i feel like this

i need to snap myself outta this

is it weird that there's only one person i feel like talking to right now
and he wont even respond to an sms?

okay yes i know, i asked for it
be careful with what you wish for- you just might get it
so true.

ANYWAY
Snap out of it
YES
*Snap.

okay.
ill be fine
dont worry


on a totally random and pointless and unrelated note, in the future, i want to name my daughter Amerie.

HELLO.

im going to be in batam till the 8th.
just in case anyone wonders
"how come mel's not online!"

yah.
im running away for 3 days
=)

BYE.

Moving forward using all my breath
Making love to you was never second best

too risky??

sarah says to get my hair relaxed, then cut it.
and also, since im going to batam (where hair cuts/treatments/colouring is CHEAP)
i was thinking of colouring my hair.
but should i go back to black?
dark brown?
or go LIGHT?

hmm, decisions.

MY BACK IS PEELING LIKE MAD
the only one having fun is my mum!
she thinks it's damn shiok peeling my skin.
nasty.

Sometimes I like to get away from this maddening shroud
Sometimes I love, you know, it's all insane
Maybe it's time for me to pack it in
Maybe it's time for me to track it in
Maybe it's time for me to throw...
Oh, I've got a good mind to throw it all away
Throw it all away
Throw it all away
After all, what is it worth?

Sometimes I like to get away from the saddening crowd
Sometimes I feel my life is all in vain
Maybe it's time for me to pack it in
Maybe it's time for me to track it in
Maybe it's time for me to throw...
Oh, I've got a good mind to throw it all away
Throw it all away
Throw it all away
After all, what is it worth?

Some days my strength walks out
Some days I can't go out
It is for real
We can walk about
We can work it over and over and over...
I've got a good mind to throw it all away...

does your life have meaning?
how do you know that your life has meaning?
what do they mean when they say "my life has meaning"?
how do you find meaning?
will meaning find you?
do you just listen to your heart?
how does your heart communicate with you?
does your heart know how to find meaning?
who knows how to find meaning?

questions questions
im crazy
and it's paulo coelho's fault.
but i really do want my life to have some meaning, direction and i really want to LIVE.
you know?
i dont want to be the girl who died while she was still living!


okay anyway i think its crazy how the world is obsessed with technology
including me
i left my cell at home today
and i swear i felt LOST.
god.
i just wanted to get home and rescue it from the depths of alone-ness
haha
really, i was THAT deprived-feeling-ish
so anyway, after school,
i rushed home
and retrieved it
and decided to skip work
and have a "ME-day"

mhm
=)
going to watch some tv in awhile
im pretty tv deprived
all i do now is go to school, go to work, use the computer, read books on the train
thats about it

oh yah, hey, its JUNE!
22 days to my naughty nineteenth
=)

Wishlist
YSL Elle.
Pink Sony t700.
Snuff by Chuck.
Holidaaay.
One Tree Hill DVDs