back to the drawing board.
Wednesday, September 06, 2006 @12:35 AM
okay i just feel like today should be the day
the day when i do this.
ive thought about it for a few days now.
my last term at school was a headache
no, not the work load.
the social load- more like it.
okay, i know this problem stems from an issue involving me
but really, its not a problem of mine.
i wish everyone knew
i dont hate aisyah
i hate how aisyah treats her own friends.
well, no. not the friends in TAS that she's la-dee-da-dee-pally-wals with
i had no problems with her first.
no problems at all. i just figured we were drifting after being put in different classes.
but then, i started to feel like she was talking down to me
like i didnt matter at al
llike she was superior and if i didnt know what she knew- i was a loser.
plus, she always contradicted herself-which made me wonder what the truth really was.
okay, maybe it was the way she intended it to be
maybe it was unintentional
whatever it is, thats the way i felt
i didnt wish to have to take crap like that
and i knew i wasnt the only one.
so i distanced myself
and blogged about it
yes, maybe my blog was a bit exaggerated and such
but i was offended.that she'd act this way
not just to me.
then after i blogged about how i felt- without explaining the situation.
everybody "miraculously" knew what was going on, i still wonder- how?
but i dont really care how.
the point is, people, just because aisyah is your friend and i have a problem with how im being treated by her
doesnt mean i have to suddenly become the villain
i doubt this will be worked out.
yes, maybe i have a sense of pride and therefore, do not want people to think of me as the villain
cmon, who would wanna be thought of that way?
no one knows what goes on behind the scenes cos i dont like to create some sort of public conflict.
okay, maybe the involved parties wont see the unfairness of it
but an outside party just might.
i mean, suddenly im an outcast- just for airing how i feel
yippee.
now i dont just get shit from one person.
geesus.
i still like the time when she conveniently forgot to tell me abt priscilla's plans to celebrate me and naomi's birthday
haha. hilarious.
teenagers.
a few years ago, i thought id look back on my poly life and remember the gd times with sarah and aisyah
At least ive still got you, sarah.=)
school's gonna be a drag next sem- and i dont wanna go back.
-melissa.